… because I’m not sure what I want to do right now. I have posts in my head that I want to find pictures for – specific pictures that I haven’t come across yet. There’s one that I have a 5×7 of in a frame and the back of the frame is held on with little nails so the picture is not easy to get out of the frame so I can scan it but I know I have the original of that photo somewhere. I already had it because mom gave it to me several years ago. I also remember seeing an 8X10 of it a long time ago. So many photos! I ordered some album pages. When I get those and start putting pictures in them that will help.

I think I’m doing okay, considering, but I often find myself not knowing what I want to do. My mother didn’t live with me so nothing about my routine at home has changed, and I do occasionally get into a not knowing what I want to do mood anyway, but even though I get bored and want to do something nothing appeals to me very much.

I did cut out some quilt pieces for the next quilt I’m going to make and I need to try to get the rest cut today. I guess that’s part of the problem. Of all the steps in quilting, I like cutting the least. It’s not fun at all and I’m always worried that I’m going to make a bad mistake somehow. So far I have only made little mistakes, which are bad enough to be discouraging. And yes, I’ve tried a rotary cutter. I screw up even more using one of those than I do with scissors.

Maybe I will also get into my fabric stash and start another garment. I actually think that’s what I’d rather do right now but I need to get started on the quilt and I’m afraid doing other sewing would be just a form of procrastination and will delay my starting the quilt, which I really want to get started on or rather, to be precise, I want to have it started. The getting started part of the project is what I always get hung up on.

The weather has been very nice for January so I could and should have been doing some stuff outside, like cleaning up the flower beds. I did partially do one of them last week but it’s supposed to be colder this week, especially later in the week. There’s one flower bed that’s just too big and I want to reduce the size of it by about half. I had almost no flowers last year. The irises didn’t bloom as well as they normally do and after those were done there was nothing. I could have tried a little harder but fighting dry 115 degree weather didn’t seem worth the trouble. I’m really hoping the weather will be better this year.

I accidentally hit something on my keyboard and made the Windows tool bars and status bars and stuff all go away. I hate when I do something like that I have no idea what I did or how to undo it. I know it’s something really simple but I’m always afraid to try anything because I might screw it up even worse. All I know to do is restart it.