I think all this cold, gloomy weather is making me… well, not really depressed. You can’t use that word anymore for just plain, ordinary “feeling down and out of sorts.” But, you know… I’m getting really, seriously tired of it. I thought today was supposed to be a nicer day but it is very dark and gloomy so far this morning.
I had a weird dream this morning. I dreamed about work but what was weird was that I mixed up two jobs I had at different times years ago. For a few years I had a job where it was either crazy busy and there were 12 things (each one of which would normally be expected to require all day) that absolutely positively must be done “today” and every single one of them was a “top priority”, or there was nothing to do at all but you were expected to look as busy as you were on the crazy busy days. Well, in my dream it was one of the nothing-to-do times and, funny thing, I realized it was only a dream but I thought I was dreaming about something that was happening in my life right now and I decided that I was going to ask to transfer to another department and I was so happy that I had dreamed a solution to my problem. But it turned out, I realized when I woke up, that the “other department” was actually at a completely different job – even in a completely different state.
These were jobs that I worked at over 10 years ago and over 15 years ago. So why would I dream about stress that I had over 15 years ago? Is it the weather? Is it the puppy? Is it all the things around the house that I need to do that I’m not getting done? All of the above, probably.
Anyway, rain is always to be appreciated because in most years, in a couple of months from now they would be talking about drought and threatening a burn ban. So rain is good but I need at least three days in a row of sunshine and I need it to be warmer and I need it now.